Today was such an Unlucky day for me. Again i was bashed up with my Violent mama. Hmm. This time because i didnt want to turn up to school due to today i want to visit bf. But Mama didnt allow me to go because i've always didnt turn up to /skipped school for no reason. Hmm. I was Bashed up till my face are swollen & my Lips were bleeding & swollen. Mcm negro pei bibir ! wohhooo ! haha. My Both eyes plaq mcm bear ! Haha. Such a luck i have bein bashed up when i just woke up.
Why must she lay hands on me ? There's no other ways ke ?! She think teenange nowadays are like their times. When bein bashed up, they'll change for the good & wont repeat the same mistakes. But nowadays, things are not like last time. Haish.
This msg goes to mama ; If you're reading this on your com, I want you to know that Im sorry for what i've done all this while till you dont forgive me. You've always said if you die, its all because of me . Not because of sickness etc. Hmm. But how should i change if you're always against me ? & always not givinig those priority to me but to others. You've always see my bad side bt aint the good ones. Haish. I know i've been an ungrateful daughter to you who doesnt know how to appreciated things or even you which god gave. Thats what you've alwatys said when you scolded me. I just cant take it anymore. Everytime you were not in the mood, you will find fault on me. But remember, at times when u quarell with papa, whose the one who msged you asking your whereabouts when you're not home yet by the usual time ?! Which child of yours knows your problem ?! Which child of yours comfort you sometimes ?! Mayb you dont realise it. Its ok . I know where i stand actually. What i can do is only, Pray to god that you will change , be healthy , long live & long lasting with your husband. Thats all i can do . Seems you treat me transparently, i will do my own stuff & you do yours. The ache of this morning's incident is still there. I just cant take it. Mayb to you its just a minor one, bt to me its not . You've treated me like a slave or even ANIMAL when u bashed me up on my bed. You even pulled my hair as if you're pulling a curtain which is stuck ! Damn ! ! Really ! Thats all i've gotta say. Lastly, I know where i stand so you dont have to worry. =)
*Cheers*
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