I felt terribly down eversince my Official break up yesterday . I've been thinking all day long , what will happen to him in future . Why is he acting this way ? Why can't he change for the last and forever the same ? Through out the relationship we had , he was like Soo perfect. Nothing went wrong apart from the major quarel. In the end , we did sort things out nicely and it went smoothly in the end . I kept on asking my self . Am i lack of something that he wanted me to be ? Arfgggh ! I just miss LYNNASTRO ! Pfft. Its hurting me deep inside here. The only thing passerby or frends can do is just cheer me up and said they understand me but the truth is , the pain here , noone knows. I wonder how he feels now . Well , the first thing i did when i woke up today is , turn on my com then brows thru my blog to see our pictures. I cried. Later , chatted with dearest Eka , comforted me then brows thru some meaningful songs. And now , im here blogging my feelings.
Sumpah siol ! Aku rase tk sdap haty sia ! Tk tao apasal . Did i do the wrong decision ? Well , i think im not but i think i am . Lynn rase yang lynn tkley accept the fact yg kiter da tkder pape . Coz lynn selalu fikir , bende mcmni tkkn terjady and tk boleh terjady tyme astro pat dalam . But then , now ternyata , on 20th his mom will be visiting him and his mom will tell him things that i reminded ibu to tell him . She will also sort things out with astro about me. Sometimes , i felt scary because im afraid that astro cant accept the fact that i wana break up then he make up probs in there . Later part , his family will like blame me . Haish . I know that im bein too emotional now adays BUT my blog my say la dey ! =)
Everytime when i pulled out my cuboard ,
This is what i saw. That un-given gift still stuck in my drawer. Thought this would belongs to him cause its specially for him . Now , things are already . Who should own it ? Well , i guess, i'll just keep it . No one can own this . I swear. This was bought at China when i was on my holiday trip with family . Mama bought this for us . Thanks mama but things have come to the end now .
Im sorry boy for this choice. Everything of yours will be kept safely . I wont throw it away . I'll wait for you til you're out and i'll ask for permission . (sobsob)
Labels: ASTROBOY
