I'll do a proper update aye ? Anw , im not feeling well now . Head has been spinning since i woke up just now . Wonder why . I've got enough sleep yesterday i must say ! Haha. For the past few days , i've been sleeping at around 3+ to 4 am and i have to get ready for sch at 545am . Just imagine . Usually , i wont feel tired you see but this few days , im feeling exhausted i must say . Haha. Shiok siol smlm dpt tdo lame2 ! Then today no sch because today is sports day and im not gonna participate or even entertain those shits . Sch should end at 1045am today . Likewise , we GYSS pupils have to be at YCK stadium at 2pm . Waste time and money kn . Might as well , forget it ! Haha.My life have been a mess lately . Im not blaming anyone but myself . In the first place , i blamed everyone ard me therefore , i turned to frends . After hours or rather days of thinking , i guess its my fault not them . Family members want the best from me . Of course la , all families want to have a succeed future and generations . No one wants to be loser . Hmm . I shudnt elabborate what actually happened btw me and family coz Mama once told me that if i wrote it in my online diary , for sure people around the world can read and frm there people may think 2 sides of us . Am i right ? So , im taking that as a lesson .
Studies / sch has been a FCUKER i must say ! Its very boring ! Argghh ! Teachers are soooo IRRITATING ! haha. But with Besties ard me , i felt complete when im in sch . Kn sahabat-sahabat ku ? Haha. They are the ones that i called TRUE FRENDS without backstabbing their own frends i must say ! :) .
Previous days , daddy went to sch together with his frend to talk to principle about me . I wont elaborate much bt just to make this post looks long , i just cut the story short and insert anything that i could . Haha. Its a sad thing that daddy trying his best to talk to me but i pushed him and walk off . Its like you faught with your Bf , gitu la lynn uat ! Haha. I felt soo bad after that cause it reminds me of Mama . Grr. When im home , daddy msged me . He asked me to called and he even said , text him often la . He's very worry about me . Hmm . Everytime i got those type of msges , i'll cry . I dont know why . Mayb now then i realise that my parents love me but they dont show it obviously like other parents did to their child .
This is for my besties who've helped me ; Hey girls , i must say that i love you all . Thanks for helping me by advicing and even those thoughful actions . Hmm . Without you guys , i've got no one to share probs with . Yes i have kaq jepon , but she herself have her own problem and relationship to hold on too . So , since we're always together , i would like to thank you guys . Whats mine is yours . Whats yours is mine ! Hahaha .Kan ? Or , What yours is mine . What mine is mine ! Hahaha. Blueq. I love you all Babygirls ! :)
To Mama gwa ; Im not sure if she still track on my blog now but previously , she always keep track on my blog . Well , whatever it is , i want to tell you indirectly through my online diary that I MISS YOU SOO MUCH ! I want to have that peck of your kiss on my face . Its been soo long i've not get any kiss from that someone called ' MOM ' . Things turned badly after what he did to me . Im not blaming anyone in the house but him ! Im sorry if i blamed him who is soo precious to you or i must say someone that took care of you all this while . Hmm . Im not sure if you want me back or not or even you still have a daughter by the name of Nur Fazlyn Binte * insert name * . Its not because im condaming you but this is what my heart says because i msged you few time and even called you using private number , you didnt answer of even reply those msges . Im not asking much from you but i just wanna know how are you . Coz i heard you're ill lately and its all because of me . Im sorry mama if its because of me . Ya i know people will say Sorry No Cure but at least good enough i got the initiative to apologize then take things easily . I would like to say that i love you and daddy whole heartedly . Seriously speaking , i dont need those STEPS MOM / DAD . As you know , since i was still a kiddo , i want you and daddy to be back together . Remember ? But you both have you own reason for not patching up back . I understand that very much . Love cant be forced :) . If you are reading this , its only a thing that i need from you which is , i want you to reply my msg . Thats all . I hope you understand me . I have no idea how to contact you or even the family . Bro are no longer acting like a bro of mine instead , a friend ! Grrr . But however , i still love him ! ;) . Ok then . mama just taqare ok ? Dont worry about adeq . Im fine . Till here then . Ilove you .
To Daddy gwa ; All i can say is , i can sense that we are comunicating with each other very well now . Im sorry that i hurt you the other day . And you want me to stay with you at yishun , Well . thats a hard thing for me to face up i must say . Insyallah , things will come to an end . Till then , im lost of werds . Taqare everybody . IloveYou .
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