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Currently talking to Fahmy ; Baby astro's frend . Hmm .Well , i kinda know a lil bit more about Babyastro . Hmm . To think it back , he have a very hard time in there . Where he have to think about the nature out here . I mean things like his loved ones , myself and his future . Hmm . While he was being rehab in there , he came across with many problems that have been creating by myself . Hmm . Im sure it hurts alort when his loved one treated him that way . Hmm .

I know sorry no cure but what more i can do now to seek for your forgiveness ? Hmm . At least i've changed for a better . Im out here trying my very best to upgrade myself . May it be part of my relationship with Baby Astro or Family or myself . Its for my own good you see. I cant just be like what i used to . Such as being a bitch , someone who always create trouble to the family , being very rude to the elders , friends was my first priority instead of parents so on and so fourth . Hmm . I must say that im very lucky to have these people ard me. They are there to pick me up when i fall . They are there to wipe my tears . They are also there to advice me. But As for Baby astro , he may not be out here now to face it together with me what ever shits that ive been facing now. All he can do is just listen or read whatever i said by myself or what i wrote in the letter .

Haish . Its not even enough for me to express my feelings right here because this is a cyber thingy . I cant cry . I cant scream to let my feelings out . I cant simply get Baby Astro next to me tapping my shoulder to comfort me or even hug or kiss me in the forehead like he used too . When i was with him , especially during the times we had after this picture ( its actually a month before he went in ) I was a "cry baby " . When he mentioned a thing about leaving me for a year six months , i will cry and hug him tightly . Why ? Because i know i cant do it without him . Im not saying all this with just words but its the fact . In fact , I failed every challenge or test that God have gave me . Jyeah . Its prooved clearly i cant do it without him . When he was still out here , all those challenge , i could do it and managed to passed. But , see everything changed after he went in . I was sure enough that my family cant control my attitude and rudeness. Just Astro Baby could handle me .

Maybe you people will say 'Lynn cant live without a guy ' Say whatever you like . As long i know myself . Its a good thing already . At least i know what i wanted . And intentions were good . :)

And to you my love , im very sure that i've fallen for you all this while . Before i fall for you , i tripped on you . And after tripping and falling for you , we came all the way till the month of 15042009. See , how fast tyme flies . Its been a year 8 months. :) Soon when you're out , we'll be celebrating many more things . Such as , our 2 anniversary , ibu's bdae on the 23rd August . Meanwhile , i think Kaq siti would have given birth already ! Hehe . Then my birthday on the 29 sept ! Readers , da tao , save money k ! Haha. FAKE ! Hopefully , we'll goo much further than this . As we promised in the letter , i want his to start a fresh when you're out . Insyallah ~

Oh yes , i miss Baby Astro alort ryte now . Thats why i blogged bout him . I just miss him soo much ryte now . Thanks to Fahmy eyk ! Pasal kau la aku rindu BabyLove aku many-many ! Haha. I miss his kiss , hugs , peck on my forehead and cheeks , his kiddy-ness , his roughness , his mentel , his everything la ! Gado ? Jgn ckp . Da puas da gado tyme dier pt dalam . Grrr. Haha. Hmm , His birthday is just a few days away . This coming 22 ! Wee~ And i'll be visiting him on the 21st ! With big bro and sister in law i think . Followed by on the 29Th , will be having open visit ! Yay ~ Can touch-touch him ! Wee ~ Cant wait siol gwa ! Haha. Excited ni ! Hmm . Then soon , he's out . I wont be tell when he'll be release . Its a surprise i must say :)

I LOVE ASTRO KECIQ ALOT :)

ps ; losers , step back :)

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