See the pic above ? Well , you miss those moments ? Jyeah i do and i know you do miss those tymes too ryte ? Hmm . Currently , you've already posted 2 post about JEPONZLYNN . Well , i must say , i miss you evey single second eventhough im always with my gf's bt i've never forget you. Dont believe , ask them . Hmm . I miss most of the times with you . Are you aware of that ? We spent our tyme more with each other than our very own family and frends ryte ? We're like shaddow . We'll always stick ard together . Where i am , there's you . Where you are , there i am . Agree ? I still can remember the tymes when we sleptover at each other house . Haha. Those late nyte talks , laughters , sadness etc , we've gone thru together . With NOONE ELSE .
Sad to say , things started to change when some people are involve between our relationship . I wont be mentioning names here . You yourself will know who are you K? Im sure you'll drop by my blog sooner or later . Hmm . Whatever it is , i dont care whatever the consequences is after you read this post . All i want is my JEPON SHOWTEK back . Without any barrier . Its up to you to hate me or whatsoever after this k . All i know is that , i've told you whats in my heart all this while . The heart pains and jealousy i must say . I hope you could somehow understand la k . I dont wish to interfere you guys relationship eventhough sometimes i've to stand up for my beloved sister here . You have to understand that we're very close to each other and we're family . Lets not talk about family la k . I think you're getting bored hearing Family here and there till there's no end . Soo , i'll just point out some . Firstly , you have to remember who she comes to when you wasnt with her . When she's down . When she needs someone to talk to . When she's in trouble . Jyeah . She faught with you many tymes . At certain tymes also she doesnt want to tell me because she doesnt want me to get mad over you . I know she's hiding things from me sometimes . I just ignore since , she's the one who choose not to share . Ouhya , im not trying to be soo calculative on this matter . Eventhough , caring is sharing . Hmm . I dont wish to prolong this matter. Let me end it here now and clear off the grudges you have on me . I hope it helps . 
As i said , i dont wish to interfere the faughts that you people had but i have too since im involve . When you people faught , sometimes , my name will be mentioned . You see , is it fair for me ? When sometimes its your fault , you blame it on some people first and then yourself . Or the other way round . You had your own reason for not letting my sister meet me . Its not once or twice . Its been done several tymes Or i must say , MANY tymes . Agree ? This is one of the things she's been hiding from me till i gt to figure it out myself . HAH ! Confuse kn ? I know . Jepon didnt even tell me a thing about this but slowly , i gt to figure it out MYSELF without others hinting me . I was dissapointed with you . Because i thot you could go through the ups and downs together with Jepon and Myself as a family but you proove me wrong . With all those helps given all this while . Is it sincere ? If its not , why help ? When i know why all this while Jepon have been absenting herself from my life , im very upset as she ever told me that however , i'll be the first person she'll priortize but at the end of the day , ALL HER WORDS ARE GONE maybe because of you . I dont know . I wudnt want to elaborate more . I think you yourself should know why things happened right ? Things happen for a reason . And the reason lies in YOUR HAND . :) So , you should know it better then others ard you . And let me make things clear aye about my self . Im not trying to put you soo low but please be aware aye ? And im not self-proclaiming to get myself at the winner position . Dont assume things as whatever you like aye the consequences mayb be a though one :) . Well , i admit my past was a disaster and those disaster made my lyfe a burden . As generation pass by , the surrounding change BUT the bad things you've done wont change and your face will always be remembered . Agree ? I wouldnt want to repeat those mistakes again . Cause i know , as im growing , i'll reflect on the past things that i've done . Dont tell me , you've never fool ard before . I bet you have done it before me ryte ? Soo , you should know it very well since you've completed that stage . Now's my turn . And i guess , im already bored with that game soo , why not leave it ? Jyeah , i've let it all goo far far away from me . For sure you wont be aware cause we're somehow not soo close . But the people who've always been with me everysingle day , they are aware . Not only them , me myself do aware too . I have to say that , im still not satisfied with the way i am now . Soo , im still in the process of upgrading myself . I dont care whatever people say about me . As long , im happy and my beloved ones who's with me everysingle day happy , i'll also be happy . To me , i've done my half of my part to cheerish the people ard me . Soo , now you know where your statements dead ? I hope you know . Thats all about me . Soo you people , dont judge that someone due to her/his past . There's a word saying , PEOPLE CHANGE . :)
Now this paragraph belongs to my ONE AND ONLY SISTER. Taq , im sorry if the contents above hurts you somehow but i have to sort things out since people have been badmouthing me . Senang ckp , Bermuke-muke uhs . Hmm . Im very sure , you're hurt somewhere and somehow and mayb you choose to keep it to yourself AGAIN. Try to keep things from me again k ? -_- And i've already read your post about us . Well , you seems to be very guilty . Why ? As i think it back , it wasnt all your fault . There some parts you're trying to correct things but you cant since there's alort of barrier towards it . Im not siding anyone here . But as i said , you're in the wrong too ryte ? I did tell you the other day . If you're not sure , ask me again . You dont have to be very guilty cause eventhoug how bad our situation is , you'll always be my ONE AND ONLY SISTER . Noone else could replace you in my lyfe . If you could recall back all those conversations we had , you'll feel very bad saying all those werds in the statement at the end of the day , everything was left only for a moment and not forever . Same goes to me . The reason i state all this is because i've thought of it throughly . And i dont wish to see you to lose another cousin of yours which you've gone thru the thick and thin together with em . In the end , you felt hurt . Am i Right ? Do you think i wanna leave you in that condition ? I guess , i could be very meant to outsiders bt not to my own blood . :) I know you felt bad when you left me all alone and enjoying yourself with loved ones . As you said , you're being controlled and you cant have your wish easily . I understand . Till now im still asking myself if you wanna know . The question is , why i have to figure it out myself and not you telling me personally ? Haish . Do you know that i was very dissapointed and felt like leaving you with your love ones . But i choose not too , cause i know i'll regret in the days to come . So as you . Soo , i texted you that way because i was soo angry and fucked up with the problem . Im sorry if it hurts you baby . As i said , i didnt mean to hurt you . We didnt cntcted each other for couple of days . I felt like there's someone missing after couple of days not contacting , soo i decided to msg you on thursday . Actually , i was expecting you to make the first move but since there's no sign of it , why not i make the first move . Soo yah , you told me that you thought i was mad at you and you didnt cntct me because you dont want things to go worst . I've explained to you in the msges i've sent to you . And im glad you've understand and even didnt care less about me after that instead you told me you missed me soo much and wanted to meet as soon as possible .
Yesterday , we met . It wasnt like the tymes before which we've used to go thru every single day . With all those laughters . *Breathe in deeply * I just miss you soo much . Eventhough i wasnt myself yesterday , you wanna know something , i was very happy and eager to meet you and i cried when we went separate ways to make our way home . Remember i signal something to you when you have already walk off ? And when you saw it , you were like figuring it out what was i saying and i said nothing . Let me tell you now , When i was on my way to my bus berth , my tears began to shed and i told myself not to cry BECAUSE if i cry , you'll be crying too . I wanna see you happy soo , i decided to ease my mind with somethings that i could do thru out the day . I decided not to show you that i was very sad when i was with you . I acted as if there's nothing goin on . Do you know how much i love and miss you ? Do you know that i needed you all this while when i was down ? I bet you dont . You missed quite a number of things about me . A minor or a Major probs that i've faced . Hmm . Well , whats the past is past . Let bygones be bygones aye ? I hope you've learn something from this situation aye ? Whatever probs you have , you're always welcome to meet me or even beep me through the phone . No matter how bad the situation is . WE'RE STILL SISTERS , FRIEND , ENEMY , BOYFRIEND , GIRLFRIND AND PARTNER IN CRIME :) Blueq. So people , if you think you wanna mess ard with my sister , you're messing with me too aye ? She's the one whom i love and depend on . Try doing nasty things to her and you'll get something from me even much more NASTIER aye ? Soo , think twice before you lay hands on us :) Ouhya . Look at the picture above . Does it tells you something ? Get me the answer very soon aye ?
I LOVE MY JEPON SHOWTEK VERY MUCH :)
with love , Lynnastro
