Sorry for not updating my blog for the past few days . I wasnt in good mood actually . Hmm . People who are close to me knows whats goin on with my life now . Hmm . And i must say , i wasnt my self too . I occupied my time with lotsa unnecessary things . Jyeah . UNECESSARY things. . Grr .
As i was soo sad when Babyastro admitted who he've been writing to when me and him wasnt in good terms . Well , i wasnt too angry with him because i know , he was stress . By the tyme , things got rockier and we managed to stable things before it got worst . Alhamdulilah . We manage to reconcile after few months .
Then on his birthday , there it goes again ! Thaanngggg ~ He wasnt in a good mood when Abg boy , Kaq siti and me visited him . Things weren't alright because he received my letter which contains a lot of things about me that i've explained earlier before he went for his face-to-face visit . Several question were asked by BabyAstro . I answered it honestly . Without any twist and turns . We didnt talked much . I wasnt quite sure what the reason was actually . ;( . I felt soo bad on letting him to have such feelings on his birthday . Now i know why he didnt give a peck of kisses when we're off . -_- .
I've been waiting for his letter since the day i visited him or even week before i went visiting him . To no avail when i checked my letter box whenever im free and i got tired of waiting for his letter. Just now , came back home and suddenly , i felt like checking the letterbox . And saw mine ! I was soo eager to open up and read the contents . But unfortunately , When i read it through the middle of the part , BabyAstro said sorry if his words hurts me . TAAADDAAA ~ from there i know , things are turning back like before . I read it gently and thoroughly . For sure i understand it VERY much ! Yeah ! It hurts too .
The moment BabyAstro touches on some parts which makes my tears flows down non stop . Seriously . The contents really tells me that BabyAstro have already gave up in this realtionship . SOMEHOW la actually . I can see that when he said , if i think i still wanna go on this relationship , he's ok BUT with his STUPID SUGGESTION i must say . Which is he said " We still remained as one if you want to but we are free to mix around and also do what we wanna do . Easy to say no controlling in our relationship . You and your life , me and my life . If you dont agree with what i suggest then any other suggestion ? Update me in your next letter k . " Well readers, can you please tell me what am i suppose to do when he said this way ? I will still wait for him . Yesh . I promise without any fooling him around . Time to get serious i must say . And what saddens me was he asked " What do you have in mind and most importantly WHERE do you think this relationship leads too ? Dont worry , im a fair person . I tell you my opinion when im release. " I just went speechless when comes to this . Im just wondering why is he asking all this questions . When i've tell him what are my suggestions are or what so ever my answer is when he's not satisfied , there we goo ; SEPARATE . ? Is that what he means ? Ya allah ~ Lindungi lah hubungan kami .
Another thing which make me even worst was he said make sure my suggestions are reasonable and can assure him that those shits wont happen AGAIN and want to know how much he meant to me . Other than that , he asked me to prove it and make him love me AGAIN like the first tyme he met me at East Coast Park and no love of symphaty . And earlier he wrote in the letter was he said thanks for confesting everythings that i've did and he didnt expect that i cud tell him everything , Which is good he said but you see . The problem is you wanna know , i've let you know everything not somethings . I didnt tell you Somethings because i know things wont be settled other than that , we will not be living happily and mayb you will have doubts on me. So , i let you know everything before other people tells you and mayb the opposite site . Noone knows . So , play safe , i tell you everything . when you know that everything , you went haywire and putting the blame on me for not makin your birthday a wonderful one whereas a disaster with no smile put on your face eventhough frends in there have fed u soo much food and trying very hard to cheer you up . Still , the FAIL .
(Click to enlarge)As i said everytime , even how bad you are to me . You're still my Babylove . FOREVER . Even how bitchy i am , i still love you .
THE SEASON IS CHANGING ALWAYS BUT MY LOVE FOR YOU HAD NEVER FADE. EVEN IF WE'RE MILES APART ,AND IF YOU FOUND SOMEONE NEW. BUT REMEMBER YOU'RE ALWAYS HERE IN MY PRECIOUS HEART.
