Hey . sorry for not updating since the last post . My time was occupied and i was lazy to update too .

Well Astro , if you're reading this im sorry but i have to let my feelings out here since i got no one to share with. I hope you dont mind , well if you do . I'll do something about it But If you're ok with it , i wil have to thank you for understanding .Soo ,  My life has been a lot of changes from Relationship status to Me to everything around me infact  .

But i had make up my mind so , Everything have already ended now. Frankly speaking , it hurts alot but i have to firm up myself onto the decisions that i've decided . I didnt want it to happend but i have too . For the sake of , a lesson for him so that he'll change in time to come . Its not for my own good but its for his own good and his future's good too . I mean im happy if he's happy eventhough it hurts and i cried everynight thinking of the past that we used to share with. It maybe a shocking thing to hear that im no longer attached but i have to fight for my right before things got worst . Astro isnt a bad guy for me frankly . He was alright but at certain point of time and attitude , i dislike it and i've already spoke to him but still , ignore . I could do anything but i have to be patience and im not sure if my patience are being paid off or not cause the fact that i could get over him when he already does . I couldnt know was what the major problem we had that day as my mind was all jumbled up like puzzles . I felt wasted though 3 years almost 2 months we're together and everything ended just like that . If i knew this would happen , i will tell him that i'll back off so that things like this wont happen that hurts alot . I know its hard to accept the fact that my loved one have move on and have been enjoying himself thruout the days we're off but i cant blame him though as i know everyone needs a space .

The last occasion i saw him and his family is one the night that we fought . After that i received few calls and text messages from him and after that i saw things like contacts that he've already moved on with someone else . I know its not my business but i have a feeling . A feeling that hurts deep inside my heart and im not sure when its gonna be healed .It hurts alot to see the girl thats he's contacting  comenting our picture and saying stuffs like she has just recently took a picture like us a couple of days back or something . I mean why the hell she has to comment that way and grab an attention from astro ? if i say that im not jealous i should be lying to you readers . The reason why im jealous is because im still not over him and still loving him . I heard people seeing him with his ex's and stuffs . I dont know if i should believe or not cause people may just create stories to make the situations worst . Im not posting this up is because i want sympathy from you people or astro but im just letting out my feelings which people dont appreciate all along .

Sorry . i have to stop here . it hurtssss alot and im down . XOXO